Thursday, April 30, 2009
Hey hey hey(!!!) MiraSunshine is here!(: I am here to update something, a lil note from the owner of this bloggaye. Well, firstly, he wont be updating this blog due to the breakdown of this laptop/computer. Ayie will get back to blogging as soon as the laptop/computer is repaired. So peoples, stay tuned! ps: Ayie!!! you own me something now! if not i pull your hair!! *laughs. xoxo.Egyptian Queen.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
School's been a bore ever since the change of classes.Personally for me,i lost the motivation to study.I have been skipping classes and school tons of times.Have not been doing my work in class.Have not been doing my homework.Reason being? The place that i am sitting at is the very place where she used to sit during the 1st few days of our foundation term.Every single time i tried to do my work in class,memories kept comming back and thankfully i have managed time and again to brush them aside but i still can't do my work due to the quietness of the new class.No noise makers.No laughters to make studying fun.I miss my old classmates very much.Mantom,Nazzeer,Elly,Wardah and such.They are the ones that made the class beautiful and lively.Ijah's and Wardah's laughter.Mantom's and Nazzeer's jokes.Elly's ermm...well,just the sight of her made me smile.Been hanging out at pkms alot lately.Went to amuk's concert on saturday and slacked at pkms again after that.This comming friday,again will be at pkms but we will be playing boxing.On next monday night, /// will be going to memories! wohoo! 6 ppl just guys having a fun filled night out at the ktv.Dun want to get a hostess as i plan to go home straight after as i have school the next day.U guys have "fun".Sigh,i miss my bro khai.I wonder how he is doing in there.I really hope he is doing ok.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Can't get to sleep tonight.No reason why.Just been thinking about thing.New things that i have never felt nor experienced before.Somehow,i'm loving this new lease but at some point i hated it so much,i feel like ending myself,fast and silently.New matured friends,new experience with old people and how they react and such to our modern criticisms.Alot to be taken in but its has been an overwhelming experience.At times,i feel on top of the world but when that feeling came,it seems like the whole world just came tumbling down with it.I'm grateful to have this experience but sometimes,i wanna share it with someone and thats the 1 main thing that has made me feel down most of the time.As for school,i seem to have given up.I may have passed english and science,but i feel really down for failing maths and i dun blame anyone except myself for not been attending school or reaching school punctually.Even Mr Hamdan doesn't know wad else to say to me.Why am i turning this way? I am not like this last year.Is it due to hatred towards this cruel and unpredictable world? Is it the prejudice with girls? Is it me? Simply can't be answered and how i wish i could answer them to satisfy my need for knowledge.Looking back on my past,i miss those carefree days.I wanna get out of this new life and i wanna live my old but is it possible?
Random Gibberish
Monday, April 13, 2009
Well well,been bloody lazy to do anything at home so i basically just went out alot.Either to slack or ktv.Went to valentine on tuesday and got home drunk.Nothing interesting happened on the following days except just gambling away at P.K.M.S .Today after school,went over to sembawang and got my hair dreadlocked :D .
Monday, April 6, 2009
Heya.Just got home p.k.m.s and its 2 a.m right now.Slacking at p.k.m.s had been very fun and a new experience for me.I have never slacked with people over the age of 40+ and its very fun.No childish issues whatsoever.On saturday,headed to abg amy's house at about 6:30 and headed to p.k.m.s.We then watched kuda kepang at malay village.I swear it's fucking stupid and scary at the same time.Once the show is done,headed back to p.k.m.s and we gambled till 6 a.m in the morning.lol.I was up by 80 bucks by playing bingo but lost it all when we played pair call -.- .Reached at at 7 and can't sleep cause suddenly memories came back.I don't know how nor why but it did.At 4 p.m,got ready and went to p.k.m.s as we had a meeting.Fucking shocked with the news.We fucking "kap" with Alip?!? Like what the hell? Never mind that.After meeting we played Bingo again and i didnt win nor lose,hoho.Tomorrow,i'll be with my new class,i'll be missing those peeps.But what can i do? Tried my best to persuade the guys but,oh well.Hopefully the new class is not gonna cross me.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Lately I've been thinking 'bout wat i can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way
I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry I, I
I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you
I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done I just can't do this anymore
Cause we can't be mended
So let's stop pretending now
We've been walking round in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry I, I
I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you, yeah
I, I I'm so sorry baby but
I, I I've got to pack up and leave but
I, I'll always remember how we came close to be
And what I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
Oooooh Yeahh
I wanted you
I wanted, I wanted you
I wanted you to be there when I fall (I wanted you to be there, yeahhh)
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love (Ooh ooh)
I wanted you, I wanted you (I wanted you oh)
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need (I wanted you to know me just how down deep yeah)
I wanted you to know just how down deep (I wanted you to know just how)
I wanted you, I wanted youI wanted you
I.. I wanted you, I wanted you
Heya! Sorry for not updating for soo long.Reason being is that i'm just too lazy and do not have the mood to do so.Life's been kinda hectic i must say.God i love my friends so.They have been with me through thick and thin and whenever i needed them,they are always there for me.A big thank you to my closest buddies such as Omar,Sida and Khairul.Speaking of Khairul,he has not been calling me nor texted me for the past 2 weeks.I'm really worried for him.I really hope he is ok.But i have a gut feeling that he has been caught.Either for vehicle theft or for taking heroin.Warned him soo many times to drop that shit.I fucking missed u bro.I really wish that your ok.As for school wise,benn failing almost all my subjects.I know i have not been able to concentrate on my studies this year and i must really pull my socks soon.Very soon.Failed english.Yes,u heard me right,i failed my english and it was a comprehension test in which comprehension is supposed to be my forte.Failed malay cause i didnt turn up for paper 1.Luckily i passed my science with a b3.I know i dropped alot from scoring straight a1's and now dropping to b3.As for maths,results are not out yet but i have a feeling i'm going to fail it.Reason? The paper is fucking tough.Combine humanities,no need to ask.Thinking back,i have realli lost the will to study.Was scoring straight a's last yr and topping the class every single time but this year,flunked terribly.To recap on the things i did the past 2 weeks or so.Didn't really do much cept for staying at home and sleeping.My body feels really tired.Last week,went to valentime with abg amy and his cousin.After karaokeing,headed down to geylang and booked a room.Headed home at bout 7:30 a.m,got ready and left for school.Classmates have not been attending class and as a result,half the class is going to be transferred to the other class.Sadly,wun be in the same class as Elly.But sigh,it has to be this way.So today,i headed home after school and slept upon reaching home.Woke up and got online while listening to the radio.The song sweetest girl came on and memories came flooding back.Part of me wanted to turn off the radio but part of me didn't want to.Enough bout that.I'm gonna dreadlock my hair this thursday and omar is sleeping over at my place to do my hair.Can't fucking wait.Had enough of the fanatic ways.Been a month since i took out all my piercings,i mean all including my eyebrow.Hopefully with the dreadlock and the new image of mine people will think differently about me.*crosses fingers*.This saturday is the starting of the lab practical lessons.And my class are planning a chalet on June and hope it turns out well.Nothing else to update about so until next time! Au Revoir.