Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Another day passed.Didn't get to to hear her voice yesterday.All i asked was about the money that i needed to buy my books.She flared up.So i sold my phone and used the money to buy my books.Dun realli have the mood to blog.
Monday, January 19, 2009
It's 3:30 in the morning and i can't get myself to close my eyes. I do wanna go to school but it's getting tougher and tougher every single day. No one knows the pain i go through by going to school alone and going back home from it alone. But 1 thing is for sure,boy am i glad that fauzi has been released from the detention barracks.After alot of talking with him,i finally realised the true meaning of brotherhood just like in the old days and we are going to make it happen. Who fucking cares if we are not in a shirt? i certainly don't cause i know i have BROTHER'S like fauzi,abul and ahmad behind my back.In other words,we have each other's back just like old times.We even have people we wanna "do". fauzi has 5 people in mind and i have just 3 in mind atm but i promised him there will be more very soon.As for abul's,me and abul has already taken care of the person.Ahmad,being the spoiler that he always is,doesn't have anyone.February,will be the month of total madness.Nothing much to blog about anymore even tho the pain i feel is always in me but it's impossible to put it into words. Since my life is already fucked up rite now,no harm in making it worse.Omega,Phantom,Sar kong sar,Airport,Tanjong Rhu...be warned.I cant wait yet at the same time,that certain someone that will always be the 1 i love keeps pulling me back.I love u Yani.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Sigh.Soo bored with nothing to do.listen to music,watched t.v.My phone is silent.It will remain that way.Read the messages she sent to me.Heart sank.She said she wants us to go dating after new years.Nothing i can do and wait.As usual.Been isolating myself in my room for god knows how long.
Hey people.Above are some overdued pics of me and her and some were taken earlier,on the last day of 2008.Went out at 2 p.m today and met up with khairul and haikal and went to nee soon to david's tattoo studio to get my tattoo made.I wanted a tiger but decided on a panther upon reaching there.It was not bad.Not as painful as i imagined it would be but when applying the alcahol,i swear the pain is fucking excruciating.I juz shook it off.I've dealt worse pain's before.So,this sunday i'm going back there and am gonna get another 1.This time,it's not gonna be a picture.It will be her name under the panther.After getting the tattoo,went to yishun and met up with kino.I thought we will just be walking for awhile den go home as i didn't wanna celebrate new years.But since we are going to Canto rock,I went along.Drank to my hearts content there with martell,chivas and loads of beer(my fav).5 barrels in all.Pain killing me but i ignored it.As soon as the pub closes,i attempted to leave but i had to limp out of the pub.Walking at boat quey,seeing other couples made my heart sink.Sigh,she said she was gonna message me 2 days ago,but up till now,she still hasn't.After new years.That's wad she said.I got to go now and apply the minyak lintar that i bought from geylang the other day.I swear it smells like minyak gamat.Adios.