Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Heya people.Not really in the mood to blog today.Just thought of updating on wad happened today.Feeling really down even before i started my day which made me not able to work properly.I find it realli unfair that she is going to zouk out with her friend instead of me.I asked her first but in the end,she decided to go with her friend.All my plans of surprising her with the tickets on our planned outing was destroyed at that instant.So i'm just gonna go ahead and cancel the outing as well.No point if u ask me.Hope she has fun at zouk out while i rot alone at home as usual.Nothing new for me there.This saturday i'm gonna accompany hamry to drink and i'll take it as an opportunity to drown all my sorrows.At work today,i made alot of mistakes and again,abul took the blame for me.Man,i feel soo fucked up.Finished work and headed home with abul.Stopped at afghan to rekki teh tarik and we saw some mat reps.Planning tomorrow at work when we gonna do it.Headed straight home after that and here i am.Nothing more to say.Until next time.
Missing my baby bushuk
Monday, November 17, 2008
First and foremost,i'd like to apologise for not blogging for a few days.Really am.I have been busy with work and activities and don't even have the mood to blog.Yesterday,i had my up's and down's but i'm kinda reliefed that i have let out everything to baby bushuk about what i have been feeling all this time.Was not easy but i managed to do so.Not that it will change things but at least i got it out.But i'll keep hoping that things will improve but to be honest,it looks grim.My motto has changed in life.I'm not gonna be the good guy anymore.Why u might ask? What do i get by being the good guy?Isn't it better to be the way i was before? but since baby hates my old self,i'm gonna make some changes.i won't fight unless it comes to me but i made it clear that there are 2 persons that i wanna have a piece of my mind with.Want them to know they are messing with the wrong person.Taufiq is 1 of them and i'm sure u guys know why.It is true that people say "Tepok sebelah tangan tak bunyi".I absolutely agree with that.But,Here's another saying that i find it meaningful "Kalau takde orang firestart,takkan jadi".And of course the second person will be arif ayam.Aku tak setanding dgn kau? Kau tak ingat bile dulu aku sebat kau sorang2 kau sampai mintak ampun ngan aku?Haha.Kau ngan 20+ orang makan aku sorang boleh lah.Letak anak gajah pon anak gajah mati.And now thx to baby,i know where he werk and anytime,anytime at all,he will be done.U want to play shit? I'll play shit.Bam has relek and u took advantage.Want you to know that a sleeping tiger is not to be disturbed.As for today,I was happy that i thought i will be meeting baby after work but sadly,things changed and she is sleeping right now.Sigh.Oh well,life's like that.Until next time!
Missing my baby bushuk
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Can't fucking sleep!!!!! ARGH!!! Missing her too much and my arm is fucking aching.Oh well,i'll live through it.I want my strength back.I wanna be able to deliver those knock-out punches like i've used to that's y i started lifting weights again and punching walls.It takes time but i know it will come and when it does,the old Bam will be back.Dunno wad else to blog about now lol.Until next time!
Missing my baby bushuk
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Rules & Regulations:
1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags backs!
Here goes nothing......*Holds Breath*1)Sounds weird but i trained my punch by punching the wall minimum 20 per day when i am free.(not soo hard tho)2)Biting my nails.3)I have a habit of smiling even tho i am feeling real shitty or sad inside and only 2 person in this world can see through this.Yani and Faiz Cine.4)Whoever laughs at this,i'm fucking taking their head off.I dare to cry for my loved ones and even die for them.5) Roaches.Should i even say y i'm scared of those little things?6)I have a habit of drinking alone whenever i am sad or down and feeling useless.7)My hair is much more precious than my wallet.Haha.8)I am extremely vulgar.*winks*9)As bad as i may look on the outside,I'm soft on the inside.10)I LOVE BEER!!!!And now i get to tag those few people that i know that have blogs.And they are:Didi and RizHeya people.I'll recap on wad i did today.Was suppose to go to werk but i went to her place in the morning instead.I just can't bear not being with her and will do anything just to be with her.Spent some time together and made my move to work and 11.Reported in half-day and got a scolding from my supervisor.lol.At work,i had to do hard-seal.I hated those.Pricked my finger like 8 times today.Those dumb metals.No overtime for me today but i'll be working overtime tomorrow,friday and on saturday.Got off work at 5:45 and headed off home.Took a detour to afghan to buy ciggies den proceeded on home alone.Abul went to simei to take a "war" vcd from arif.Rained heavily while walking home and was fucking freezing even tho i'm wearing a sweater.reached home at about 7:30 and covered myself for awhile in my blaket.How i wish that we was here and we can cuddle up.We love to do this when we were together.Sigh.Memories flashed back while in bed.Now,i'm just waiting for her to wake up and give me a call before i fall asleep.Until next time folks.
Missing my baby bushuk
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Heya people.Sorry for not updating for a few days.Have been really busy with work and life.These past few days i was sick and still pushed on to go to work.And also,I have been feeling down due to some circumstances.Made up my mind that i will nvr get attached to any other girl besides her.If it doesn't happen,oh well,i'm used to being treated like dirt as always.And it it does happens to me in that way,I guess i'll go back to my fanatic days.Like the title of my post for today says,"Life is a gamble" and yes,i am going to take this gamble.I will have enough of being the good guy and gets spits back.There is a limit to everyone's patience.I was just about getting used to people calling me ayie instead of bam cause i thought that name will be long forgotten since i've found her.Due to some incident's,the "bam" in me is starting to show.Take saturday for example.At work,i was just minding my own business doing my work sitting down at the place where i used to sit.Then this technician comes along and asked me to move in a rude manner.I simply ignored him.He then shouted at me.I blew my top and fucked him back in front of my supervisor.He could have just asked nicely.I told him at lunchtime he is dead(in malay since he is a malaysian).Abul pulled me away and my supervisor pulled the technician away.The technician got a mouthful from my supervisor and was asked to apologised to me.I just ignored that and said that he is still not safe(again in malay).Now i am starting to remember why i am carefree in my fanatic days.I don't give a heck about anyone and live my life be it girls or guys.Yes,bam has a reputation which i have long since siezed the name but now,i am reconsidering up living up to the name again.Upon finished working,i headed home and in the bus home,she messaged me.I missed her and wanted to meet her but she dun want me to send her off to town.Puzzled me cause if she is telling the truth that its only girls over there,i don't think me sending her off will do any harm am i right? Meh,i just headed on home and do my own things after texting her that i wun disturb her anymore from now onwards.If she cares for me,she would at least call me and asked wad i mean.But sadly,no.Made up my mind and decision if she wants to meet me,tell me and i will.No point if i told her that i wanna meet her when i get turned down every single time.Not in the mood to blog nemore.Until next time.
I am thinking of youIn my sleepless solitude tonightIf it's wrong to love youThen my heart just won't let me be right'Cause I'm drowned in youAnd I won't pull throughWithout you by my sideChorusI'd give my all to haveJust one more night with youI'd risk my life to feelYour body next to mine'Cause I can't go onLiving in the memory of our songI'd give my all for your love tonightVerseBaby can you feel meImagining I'm looking in your eyesI can see you clearlyVividly emblazoned in my mindAnd that you're so farLike a distant starI'm wishing on tonightChorusI'd give my all to haveJust one more night with youI'd risk my life to feelYour body next to mine'Cause I can't go onLiving in the memory of our songI'd give my all for your love tonight** Guitar Break **(Mariah Harmonizes with guitar)ChorusI'd give my all to haveJust one more night with youI'd risk my life to feelYour body next to mine'Cause I can't go onLiving in the memory of our songI'd give my all for your love tonightGive my all for your loveTonightMissing my baby bushuk terribly
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Heya people.Been a fun day for me today.Woke up late for work and decided to take m.c.But before doing so,i accompanied abul to pay for his school fee's at I.T.E simei.Sadly,he was late to make the payment and can't be enrolled.He talked to the in-charge and he said that he will give abul a call by end of today.Hopefully he gets to be slotted in*crosses fingers*.After that,we went to tamp for breakfast and i went to Tamp poly for my m.c while he heads off to work.While waiting for my medicine,Arif(a work friend) popped up.He too woke up late for work and took an m.c lol!.After collecting our med's,we walked to afghan and chatted along the way.Once reached,we ate and he accompanied me while i wait for her at her void deck.She came down in less than 10 mins and arif took off.Took a cab to bedok north secondary afraid that she will be late for her exams.Reached abit early and slacked outside for awhile.I was gonna wait for her till her paper ends which means 1 and half hr of waiting outside.Good thing,called ryhana down and she accompanied me till about 2:45 until she has to go off.Had a good chat with her since it has been awhile that we have not met.Shocked that she did not take her "n" lvl's examinations as she was hospitalised.3:30 came soo long and i'm starting to miss her bad.3:30 came and there she was standing outside the school like a princess.Waited for the guys and we ate and drank(just a bottle) at the coffee shop nearby.We all then headed on to kembangan to play dota.But baby didnt wanna play so i booked her in at the hotel while i joined the guys for 1 game and headed back to the hotel where she was waiting for.Was such a nice feeling just to be with her.No interruptions what so ever.I simply love it.Booked out at 9 p.m and headed to kampong chai chee to eat.Soon after we headed home but she doesn't want me to send her home in fear that her brother will see us together.Sigh.Reached home and did some business and called her straight away and chatted with her on the phone.After like 45 mins of talking and laughing on the phone,i got on the comp to blog(like wad i'm doing now) while she plays her nintendo d.s.That's wad i did today.God i love being with her soo much.If only there wasn't any inteference :(.That's all for today folks! Until next time.
Missing my baby bushuk
Monday, November 3, 2008
The pics are taken yesterday.1st pic was taken in the hotel yesterday with her.Second pic was taken at teh tarik while waiting for our food to arrive and before going to dxo.last pic was taken by her when i was waiting for her to get her hair done.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Heya people.It's 6:45 p.m atm and i just woke up about 6 p.m just now lol.Recap on what i did yesterday.Went out at about 3 p.m and fetch her at North Park bus stop and headed off to my cousin's tunang.Stayed there till like 4:45 and we went off to parkway.Walked around and bought her a belt cause she forgot to bring 1 and her jeans are slipping.Was a nice feeling just being with her.We then went and played pool and i taught her how to play it.She won,cause i let her win and misses cue on purpose so that she can learn and get her confidence up.After that accompanied her to do her hair and we walked around aimlessly after that.We then headed to hotel 81 at kembangan as i need to rest.Booked out at about 10 p.m and headed down to tamp where i went home and changed and went to eat with her.Sent her off to eliana's crib as she,eliana and qash are going to clarke quey where as i am going to dxo. Hailed a cab down to dxo and met up with my cousin there.Outside dxo before we entered,my cousin gave me a pill(ikan) which i turned down saying not the time.Upon entering,There's is like 15 people of my cousin's friends and like 4 bottles of vodka.My cousin and i drank neat and he challenged me who can drink the most.within a few mins,1 bottle is downed.I then headed outside for a smoke.Came back in and there was more than 5 bottles on the table -.- .Pain striking me like crazy but i just ignored it.This time,me and cousin drank like 2 bottle but luckily for me,it was not neat.Went outside for another smoke and my cousin came out smiling at me.I asked what? and he said.i'll know it when it hits me.I was like "?".Went in again and kept drinking like nobody's business as there seems to be more and more bottles instead of less.How i wish that she was here to drink with me.And with that thought,i drank even more.Next thing i knew i was dancing alone on the dancefloor.Felt tired but energetic.Realli strange.Then a thought hit me and i gave my cousin that look and he laughed -.- .Kept drinking and drinking and the next thing i knew,i was at home lying at the sofa.I didnt know who sent me home and wad time i got home.Having a very bad hangover atm and have like no appetite to eat.Missing her soo much and waiting for her to call me which i know will nvr happen.Hope she had fun yesterday.Until next time.
Missing my baby bushuk