Friday, December 12, 2008
It's 8:45 a.m now and i have not slept a wink for the past 2 days or more.I can't even keep track of the days.I miss hearing her voice soo much :( .Everytime minute goes by without me not thinking of her.Went out at about 3 a.m for a little walk at the connector but ended up jogging 3 laps of it and did some exercises at the fitness corner.Reached home feeling tired and exhausted so i thought after a good bathe i could have a good sleep.I thought wrong.Argggghh!! I hate this.I hate my life.I hate me.I feel like i wanna end it all.Drown my feelings with drinks but i had already promised her,i didnt drink anymore.It is not easy as it is a habit of me to drink whenever i feel down or upset or both.Sigh.My mum is starting to bitch at me now.My cousin just called asking me if i still wanted to go to zouk out as i have already paid him for the ticket.If not,he'll just sell the ticket to his friend.I really don't know if i am going so i told him i'll confirm with him by tomorrow evening.I soo miss her!!!!! arghh!!!!! She means the whole world to me.She is my light,my everything.
Missing my baby bushuk alot :(
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