Saturday, December 13, 2008
I fucking miss her!!!!!! Its has been 3 or 4 days since i last heard her voice and to me,its like going through hell over and over again.It will kill me i swear.I miss the old times where i get to tag at her blog freely,whenever i want and wadever i want but now i cant.I would tag and she would tag back while we are on the phone talking.I miss those times :( .I don't even know if she knows wad i'm going through right now.She texted me yesterday but i have a feeling that she doesnt want me to text her back as she is at her brother's place.It's good to know that she is having fun and relaxing alot.I'm trying to have fun myself but it is soo hard for me.I can't even leave the room without thinking of her.Okay,"n" lvl results will be out soon and i'm fucking scared.Y u might ask? well,honestly,i'm not scared of failure but the teachers at Mercu have high expectations of me even those that doesnt teach me for example Mr Hamdan.I dun blame them tho as i have been consistently scoring high marks for the tests is school and they expect me to achieve better grades.But wad grade is better than A1 cause that is wad i have scoring for the tests in school.For people that knows me well,they will know that i do not like to let other people down.The thing is,i'll be taking the results alone.Wad if i dissappoint them? I'll be very upset then and there's no one to cheer me up.I was hoping she would be there to cheer me up cause she is the only 1 that can really cheer me up.Enough said about "n" lvls. Me and sidah chatted yesterday and we were talking about opening a club or a pub.That is not my area at all.I mean i have the connections but not with the government.As for sidah,she is worried that the crowd will not come in.And i am worried as i don't even know how and where do we get the liecense to open up a legal club.lol.As capital wise,sidah has savings.I know she does.She used to earn more than 5k per month,kinda impossible she doesnt have savings right? and her dad left her money and so has her grandfather.She is good on capital wise.Sigh.We talk about that when we have time k sis? And baby,i hope u have fun tonight.I might be going to zouk-out tonight.But its not confirmed.Most probably not cause i cant even picture myself leaving the house much more going to zouk-out.I love u baby and will always do no matter what happens.
Missing my baby bushuk
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