Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Heya ppl! Sorry for not updating for the weekend.Had stuffs to do.Well,time to recap on what happens.Let's start with saturday.Hmmm,trying to remember what i did on saturday.Oh yes,did nothing at home just listening to songs and met up with khairul and indra and we went to play counter-strike.I said i didnt know how to play and they say they are gonna teach me but ahem,i still got my touch :D .Indra said "Banyak kao peh tak tau main.Bagos sak kao." lol.literally trashed them to pieces :D .Den went home at about 6 a.m and got on the comp again but was lazy to update :P .On sunday,sigh.I finally managed to meet her.Conquering my fears to meet her and she turned up at my place.But sadly,she went off at about 11:45 to meet her frens even tho she was sick.I tried to convince her to either go home or stay at my place to rest but being the yani that i thought i once knew,she went ahead with her plans to meet her frens.After sending her off,i headed down to changi beach where khai,sidah,abul and lan was there fishing.I didn't bring my stuffs along cause i dun feel like fishing anymore when she is not with me.Sigh,it realli feels different in everything i do without her beside me.And i mean everything.Upon reaching there,they have onli managed to catch 1 catfish.Went to eat even tho i have no appetite but was forced by sidah.When eating,abul played the song "with you" by chris brown.Stopped eating immediately and my eyes swelled with tears.Sidah and khai scolded abul and quickly changed the song.After that,i have no mood to entertain them and just stared at the sea,picturing how wonderful it is to be here with her.So peaceful and serene.Can't take anymore and went into the tent for a rest in which i fell asleep.When i woke up,it was already bright.Asked khairul to accompany me to the toilet.Halfway when walking there,the pain struck again and left me seated at the ground.Beared with it while khai carried my to the toilet and asked me to go have a check-up.I simply told him,if i am to go,i will go no matter wad medicine's i am supposed to take.He started to nag and i just said to respect my decision and he kept quiet.Went back to the tent and went back to rest.Packed up our things at about 11:30 a.m and off we went home.Slept for like 3 hrs and den i woke up with nothing to do and no one to talk to.Decided to send my daughter to yishun.Upon reaching,The grandparents threw their faces when they saw me and i just walked off.Messaged with her while on the way home.A part of me wanted to see her again and she came over to my house.Can't help but stare at her and stroking her hair,things that i missed doing.Sigh.We fell asleep till like 4:30 a.m and she went home.I stayed up watching t.v and got ready for werk.After werk met up with her at vivo city and went home with her.These past 3 days has been a rollercoaster of my feelings.Sad and happy at the same time.Sad that we are onli friends but happy that i get to see her and spend some time with her.Wanted to take her along to my cousin's engagement on saturday and my sister's friend wedding on the same day.She said she'll give me the confirmation by friday.Really wished she can be there.There's still more for me to talk about but i dunno how to let it out and she wants me to hurry up and finish blogging cause she wants to read.So,until next time!
Missing my baby bushuk
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